J is a crackpot tonight.
2009-01-15 at 1/15/2009 01:25:00 AM
Looking at the old wallpaper I have on the screen of my phone,it flashed back to the time I showed him my hand when he was in remand.
I hope I'm still able to comply the promise made...
because I want to,for him.
It's him,my other half.
I can choose to neglect many things in my life,for him.
I can do what I don't do for others,for him.
I can stop myself from doing what I always love to do,for him.
I can dote on him more than I love myself.
Yes,to that extreme.
What made him so special,so different from other men in my life,that I can do everything just to show my love to him?It's his smile,his contagious laughter and his love.
It's not that I don't trust him,but hell true,this world is a mess.
I'm getting tired of all the interrogations I used to resort to,so I won't.
I feel lethargic when I let my imaginations run so wild it almost crucify me.
All these should stop,because all I know is I love him,and I want to keep loving him.
Now,who cares about who where why.
At least for now,I don't.
I just hope god's not making fun of me.
I hope every retribution for all the bad things I had done,I have paid for it all just before I met him.
AND...
I enjoyed every sec of the 14th though it wasn't a date just for the both of us,because it's you I spent the moments with.Guess the loveliest thing that happened yesterday,...
"being your pillon,with you riding,with me hugging you ever so tightly as the wind howled like FREE!"
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