Need a SPARK.
2008-12-23 at 12/23/2008 01:58:00 AM
If a lollipop appears right in front of me now,I'll scream and give that person a hug.
"ranting away" I want a lollipop,I need one,I'm so going berserk!
For no reason.I feel happy though,but something in me is changing,stirring me up from time to time.Like out of a sudden,I'll go 'oh my god,why did I just say out?' I'm blurting out things I didn't want to,but well,I guess it didn't offend a single soul because my life is still at peace now.
But still,I need a SPARK.need something different.
need a moment of silence or a heart-to-heart talk at the beach with someone close.
and dearling,you aren't here.no one is going to walk with me along east coast park,sit somewhere and talked like as though we have all the time in the world (we usually end up in cabs,-.-).Sadness will always overcome itself when I'm with you,you will never fail to make me laugh,sometimes I have to even gasp for breath because you're too insane,and I miss you hitting me when you go insane through laughter.as I blog,my tears rolled down,I guess I need you around.Maybe I don't need you every single day because I have a boyfriend now,but something I know,I know I need you around to share with me my joys and pain.nabei la.faster come back will you?
P/s don't worry dearling,nothing's wrong with me,just a gush of emotions flowing through.I'm happy now,with everything.(:God knows what's up with me,I don't know.I can be so happy this minute,and become as quiet as a mute the next second.That's why I say something is really changing in me.Hormonal changes??OH NO!I'm no more the 24/7 hyperactive happy shit,more like a part time nowadays.Maybe it's due to things that have been happening recently,that I won't elaborate,because I'm quite used to handling problems myself.
Okay,I tell myself I'll enjoy xmas 2days later and come up with a better plan on how to be a happier person.Adios!
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