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I woke up with a smile yesterday,because I dreamt of you and me.So i thought to myself,'well,it's the first time since the 13th that I woke up tearless,so I should dress up today.'And yes,baby,I dressed up,wore a dress and put on my favourite eyeliner.BUT,I stopped halfway anyway...cuz it was all but a dream.Argh.It feels like years do you know?

Okay,skip that part,I seriously feel like a lunatic.
Chermont came over to my place to meet me in the evening.Wanted to head down to Ehub but I was already feeling tired and restless when I stepped out of my house,so went straight to tm instead.We were supposed to catch 'burn after reading'.Like something 'light' so we could laugh about something,though Max Payne was what we so wanted to watch.Anyway,we changed our plans cuz Nic was feeling really down,and adding to my already-there emotions,we went over to summer breeze for a drink,quan and huili joined.

That was the place we went on the first day we contacted back baby.I even remember exactly where you and I were sitting at,and everything you told me,every tactical moves you made.Haha.Songs playing there,it was insane.I was feeling like crap,it's either songs you sang to me all the time,or songs I sang to you before,or songs we both loved.Slowly,I felt dizzy but don't you worry baby,wasn't a bit drunk,just high on chang light and tequila.This wait feels like forever.When I reached home,I wrote to you in a serious dizzy state.I bathed and I puked everything out.I can't lie down straight,everything will gush to my brain,made me feel like I was dying.After much attempts like forcing myself to puke till the last drop,I slept.Baby,sorry.I shouldn't have drank.But I thought it could help forget the pain I have inside me for awhile,but come to think of it,I think it makes no difference because I cried to sleep again.

Dearling,I read your post,thank you.It's okay if you can't be here with me,it's enough to have you there listening to my neverending cries.Yes,i totally understand everything dearling.I will be strong and don't worry dearling,I won't neglect my dip cuz I promised him I'm going to pass!Thank you my best friend,you never ever fail to be there for me.And you make me miss your comfortable shoulders like alot.((: I love you!

P/S 3 troubled people in their own worlds,that's me,chermont & nicole.It's crazy because none of us are giving advices and whatever you call that.But no matter what,thank you for being there,the two of you,all these while when he isn't around.Thank you for listening me nag and whine,repeating my sorrows again and again.Quan and Huili,thank you too.(:Loves.