I'll be strong...just for you.
2008-10-09 at 10/09/2008 02:20:00 AM
And I know it's never you to be like that,to me.You always put up a brave front,giving me that manly hug,telling me everything will be fine.Finally,you poured out everything to me.And no,you're not a weakling...you're my strong boy.Thank you for finally giving me this chance to be there telling you what you used to tell me.Details I won't elaborate,this is for just you and me to know,to remember deep down in our hearts forever.
3 months,and what we'd gone through,it's just not like the
usuals.The things we went through together,all the
laughters and sorrows,the quarrels and makeups,all so different.But one thing I'm sure of,this will keep us strong and strengthen our bonds.3 months,a quarter of 2008,all the ups and downs,whether good or bad,I will all keep in mind,because it's about you,and me.
All the
unconditonal love you'd given me,all the rides from here to there without a complaint,all my favourite treats you never ever fail to give just to cheer me up.All the long hours chatting on the phone till the sun comes out,all the 'tactics' you used just to catch my attention,all the times you said 'i only fetch joce'.lol.And I have so much more to list,3 months of memories with
neverending laughters and joys.all these memories,they are something money can't pay to own.(:
To relate back to the day you got caught,the pain and everything seems so fresh,like something that happened just last morning.The tears rolling down my cheek from time to time,even when I'm outside with my friends and families.The thought of thinking how depressing it'll be for you inside that dark room,I always hope I could be there giving you the tightest hug to cover you from the cold nights.The struggle I experienced when I can't be there at your most lowdown period in life.That sour feeling which followed me 24/7,no matter how hard I tried not to think,you kept appearing on my mind.And then I started looking at every bike that passed by my sight.It's traumatizing for me to even think back.What's worse if it is going to happen another time?I don't know.I only know you are worth my waiting for.I will.And no matter how depressing it'll be,i'll be strong...just for you.Love,let's pray for the best,we must be optimistic and things WILL turn out well.And when we're sincere,there might just be a miracle.Let's pray for mercy,let's pray to god...let him know I can't afford to lose you by sight...even for a day.I love you,so let's face this together.Never...never...please...don't push me away,because that's the last thing I would like to do.last 4 days to count...
i'm ready and prepared for everything...
we'd come so far as one,been through so much...
let me stay beside you another time,don't push me far away.