SAY WHOOSH!
2008-09-28 at 9/28/2008 11:43:00 PM
...to tell me you are surprised I blogged!
No time.
No energy.
No.
No.
No.
And most importantly,nothing to blog about.
Say hello to crankiness.
Say hello to boredom.
Say hello to all my undefined emotions.
So how's life for me in school?Plain SHIATE.If only i did not have to retake everything over again.Like for one whole year okay,how much more irritating can it be.The trips to school are unbearable,the early morning rantings from mummy are unbearable,the hot sun and heavy rains are unbearable.
Bearable part about school: The usual cliques.At least they made my day in school,laugh at my jokes(sometimes) and most importantly,4 out of 6 of us fag!So yes,that goes to show I'm out of class for hours slacking at prata shop and when we're done,class is almost over.
Every day starting from today is going to be crazy,that's how I analyse and have no reasons to support what I have mentioned.*ahhh cranky*
Dearling,I still can't adapt to not seeing you.Though I have things to do,have school,have a boyfriend,have my friends,but I miss you like crazy.And I'm serious.Like when can you give me a hug and tell me not to fret because I have you?Like when will we cry over our problems together?Like when will you use a piece of tissue to make a rose for me when I'm down?Screw it.You better come back soon.And and and,when can we chat and gossip at east coast again?When can we sing our favourite songs together again?When can we shout and laugh like no one's business again?When can we bicker again?Okay,that's out of point.Lol.
When?1-2 years later.You know it's very long!Sickeningly long.Whatever,you just take good care and appear at my doorstep soon.Stupid hx,snatch her away,far far away from me!Hahaha.it's a joke okay.Knowing how well you and his marriage is,I'm glad!(: And shoo your bffs' away for good!They can't make you laugh and tear like I can!RIGHT?yes,right.(:
It's a happening year for me.Screw 2008.Good things,bad things.Like maciam I'd been through so much.Kinship,friendship,relationship.All 'smelly smelly' also got something to think about.Whatever,hopefully god would make it good and well for me for the rest of the year.
I know the scars on your hand is never going to fade off...
but I hope the scars in you are slowly healing...
I heard about your call...
Heard about how you're doing...
I love you boyfriend,never want to compare anything about you with him.My expectations are high,so high I think it's not making us work out at all.I need time,but can you give that time to me?There are many times I just wanted to give up on us,many times I felt it's better off being friends after all.At least we won't have so much to fret about,cuz it's slowly turning it to be a burden to you.I would like things to turn out well,hopefully.The smile I have across my face everyday don't seem to appear as much as it used to be.I don't know whether you'll get to read this in the end,I don't know whether I should express myself like that or not.So if it's meant to be,you'll highlight these part of the screen cuz the text is in black.BUT,if you do see,I don't want us to quarrel or debate because from now on,I rather things between us work out on its own,cuz on my part,trying too hard is making it seem like I'm being oversensitive and paranoid.So boyfriend,let's hope the bond we have created over these few months will overcome this unseen barrier.I love you.Really love you.Bcuz every little things you do for me,till today,is much appreciated.
Skyping skyping.Gunbound Gunbound.Nights people!