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I have officially moved to jjoce.wordpress.com
But I might come back again someday. Haha!



Stalk me, that's when I'm ready. Now not.



Im back to blog about me being tempted over getting an Iphone. Madness.

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Thanks to my two lil ones at home, I'm addicted to Viwawa again. And now I'm wondering how I should take it when I don't get to play when I start working on Monday. Crap. I took 2 weeks mc, and I'm left with no money this coming month. Tmr's payday, but I'm so not excited at all.

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I'm bored of not blogging, it's been helllllooooong.
I've started working on 12th August 09, so since then I have NO TIME to blog at all. I'm not joking. My work starts from 9am and ends at 6.30pm. Yes, but the thing is my job has sudden OTs. Anytime, I might have to call off plans with my loves.

I'm lucky because bi's in camp, if not how would I survive. Haha.
My botaklove has hair now, he tried to style it but it only seemed a little neater. Poor him has to travel all the way to Choa Chu Kang for his 6 weeks course as a signaller. But well, because I hadn't been blogging, his course is ending on 3rd Nov. Haha.

We're together for 15months already, cool? I think time passes real fast now that both of us are super busy. But in a way, I miss him more, so weekends are my life. But the irony is weekends passes SUPER FAST. But well, what to do, wait lorrrr.

I just read what I wrote above and I think I don't know what to continue already. So goodbye, I'll be back, soon. ((:

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First came the fever and the sorethroat.(it's over)
Now the bad cough and the flu.(ongoing)
Shit. Do I have H1N1?


Grrreat. I'm going to visit the clinic if I don't get better after today.
I want to swim, but yet I can't.
Doubleshits.



And after wanying motivated me to swim for that 12 laps, I almost die. I've not been exercising for a loooooooong time and I'm like gasping for breath all the time. But alas, I did it lah, thank you so much lah love. (: Anyways, I want to be the sporty girl I used to be, to be exact, 7 years ago. Rofl. Call me MISS SPORTY please, anyone? I'm now a weak shit, feeling aches all over my body. Feel for me people. But no matter what, AM NOT GIVING UP, meeting up with her again for the next 12 laps.

Oh and boyfriend, I miss you. This is the second night without your call.
Tomorrow's my very important interview at Redworks. I so hope I could get a job but even I get, I won't get you a fireblade or even a super4. You wait long long. Haha.
Say GOOD LUCK TO ME from where you are luh.

XOXO, miss sporty.
p/s and I fucking want that high waisted skirt I saw. MUMMY PLEASE LEHHHHHHHH!

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All the snapshots, mostly me and him. 

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Oh yeah man, during his 2 weeks confinement, I spent most of the time doing a makeover to my room. It is a successful Xtreme Makeover. Now I stay at home most of the time, love my room tooooo much.  



This is boyfriend's first bookout! After that two weeks confinement. I actually waited another two weeks. I even joked with him that this relationship we have is about waiting for him. Wait and wait and wait. But okay luh, I didn't say I can't tolerate anymore. I'm still a good girl. It was really breathtaking when I waited for him at the interchange, I felt almost breathless and I am not kidding. I was so excited loh, and in the end my mr.Bangladesh Boyfriend emerged through the crowds. My first reaction was; 'Wah, you very black sial.' plus the mushy stuff which you people will probably not want me to share. 











A bad thing to stop blogging for sucha long time, now I don't know where I should start. I have many many visuals, but guess I don't have that much to blabber about. Oh, and because I have a personal blog with boyfriend, I've been blogging more there because he is in camp marching away. Lol. Anyways, I'm more or less adapted to life without him, on weekdays. But when the weekends come, I'm like a total crazy and love-deprived girl, sticking to him as long as I could. I even squat beside him when he shits, okay that's a joke I swear. Yah lah, I will stop the cheesy love-deprived thing.




Sorry that I am missing for such a long time. I will blog real soon. Like probably tonight. Hold on tight! LOL.

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Listen to this song.
THAT'S WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try to feel
The way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well, you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

Whoa, and then for the times when we're apart
Well, then close your eyes and know
These words are comin' from my heart
And then if you can remember, oh

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times, in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
Oh, that's what friends are for

Whoa... oh... oh... keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, oh, for sure
'Cause I tell you that's what friends are for
For good times and for bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for (That's what friends are for)

On me, for sure
That's what friends are for
Keep smilin', keep shinin'

I have a best friend, and it's only except for the fact we don't have blood ties, if not she's like a real sister to me. On my birthday last year, she went to Arizona, to start a family together with her husband who's working there. So like I said, last year's birthday was that a great day to me. Anyways, she won't be back till december so it means she's going to miss my 21st birthday. And hello best friend, I so hope you can be here okay, I will enjoy myself but it's going to be way BETTER if you're around.

We don't talk oftenly on the phone, she's busy with my godson, I'm busy with all the random things, and so when we talk we have so much to catch up I seriously dont know where to start. But all the time when we talk and when I start to miss her more than I'd always been, the inner me will start to sour and then I will burst into tears. (I think she knows how to imitate my poor cries because I'm always crying to her) She's away for "HELLO! NEAR TO 10 MONTHS!" already but I guess the bond is strong enough because we still miss each other so much. And, it'll always be the same. Initially, we did go through rough patches in this friendship itself. She will always tell me, 'look, it takes 2 hands to clap.' So true, it applies in every relationship can. But finally now, I guess we did that, so I strongly believe even when she's back, things will be the same for us, even better.(:

Anyways, dearling its okay that we won't be able to hang out like we always did in the past after you're back home, understand that you have little Javien with you it's going to be tougher. But well, isn't it good that I've already stopped having much nightlifes now? So when you're back, we can always go shopping, chill at a corner, together with Javien? By then you need to go home, I bet I'm deadbeat as well. I'm awaiting for your comeback everyday, boyfriend yearns for you to come back too, cuz he'll always see me tear and get 'emo' every now and then, I don't know how long he can survive. Haha. No matter what, I still do call you when I'm upset, I hope you'll do the same because unless I'm really busy at that moment, I will be there anytime. (:

Lastly, I will never ever forget you because michelle aw, you're my best friend!
Told you, now that I'm typing all these out, I'm feeling not too good again.
Haha, but will be fine, still a few months to endure and you'll be back to make me tissue roses again.



Oh I am officially leaving NAFA, for good, and that's if I pass my last 2 modules.
Anyways, I will just take it that I have graduated, till then.
Now, I am too free so I have the time to count down to the day baby enlists into army. Oh no!
That soon-to-be botak is going to be mia for 2 weeks.
(the blog title is a fake)
But well, I can get a job and go for hardcore retail therapy. Again, till then.

I think I lost touch with blogspot for too long, I can't think of anything to blog about.
So, yeah, I'm publishing this post as it is, and will blog again someday.

WAIT! Something INSANE.
Seriously, as insane as it is, I knew of someone who photoshopped her cleavage using brush and liquify tool. Adobe photoshop, aren't you a genius for bimbos? Tsk.

Like he always tell me, photos can lie. So true, too many live examples.

And, take a look at this video. Funny!




( SIGH )

Just 41 days before he enlists into army.
It feels like tomorrow, and I'm already feeling the tension.
I expected it, expected this day to come, but now that it's so near, I'm starting to feel lost.
Though it didn't feel as bad as it was then, but there's still tears, despair.
I wish for time to pass really slowly, so we could have more time together.
It's a bad timing for us actually, I am so busy with my school, you're going to be so busy with your work. Hopefully we could have some time. Hopefully.



As I blog, I'm listening to our song, 'fall for you'.
I kept crying, mind all blank, my throat feels tight while I'm here trying my best to hold my tears back.

Time flies, we are together for 9 months already. Had all the ups and downs like all the couples around, not forgetting the lovely share of joys and laughters, sticking to each other all the time. Time will slowly allow me to adapt to not seeing him on the weekdays, I know and I believe I will pull through. I know I can be independent, but it gets me worried about how tough his bmt is going to be... well... I am confident he will be fine because it's him.





I will wait for you, big bully.
I will wait for you, my precious boy.
We'd gone through the toughest time together, we will pull through this together.
I believe so.








'Absence makes one miss, remember?'
2 years from now, I hope, really hope for us to still be the same.


Though our future still seem bleak, I hope we can walk together for now till we can't.
But again, baby I hope you're my last.

p/s tonight will be night that I will fall for you, over again, dont make me change my mind.
And this picture, for you.

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I was in front of his com, and I changed my facebook status to "Joce Lyn wants a happy little treat."

Is that the telepathy everyone's talking about?
Yes it is,mr boyfriend.

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Good Friday.

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Helloh. (:

I have been so busy recently, all the weekends burnt and etc:
So I'm sorry I couldn't manage my time properly, dividing it for everyone.
I'd been hearing some remarks which I dont want and dont feel like explaining.
I wont hint out on anyone for further troubles and stuff.
So yeah, letting it be will be the best solution.
No one's perfect, I am not too.
If being busy is an excuse in your eyes, then I dont have a reason to explain.
-.-

Anyways,chermont lau,I dont know why you didn't reply me but I do hope we could meet up soon because we have alot and alot to catch up with.So when are you free?Like we could have dinner or supper together or something?With Nicole?She's lost right?Meet up sooooon!

Perhaps recently weren't too good for me and baby.
Nope,no dramas in our relationship, more of facing with stress and stress and stress.
Baby,no matter what,I strongly feel we will pull through together.(:
It hurts to see you hurt luh.

p/s I hope to always be the one attending to you when you're hurt, stressed or upset in many
years to come. (*: Dimpled smile baby!



I just finished reading a book I borrowed from Chermont, 'Man and Boy'.
It was really nice, kept me occupied in the middle of the night till I feel my body bugging me for some good sleep. It was about this extra-marital affair this guy had, a one night stand which ruined his marriage. Just one night, and it's game over. And I can't forget one sentence extracted from the book; "The joy of a meaningless sex should never be underestimated". Yeah, it shouldn't. Men. I hope a relationship isn't so complicated, why are there so many men who could sleep around and go back home telling their wife how much they are loved. Or even more senseless when they go around telling their friends how much they loved their wife, sleeping around was just to show how much of a normal men they were. Bullshit.

I know for me, it was never like that. Or to begin with, I'm never once a man. I might have foul in a relationship before, might have fall for someone else when I was in a relationship with someone, might have been out at the zoo enjoying myself when my boyfriend was sick at home waiting for me, might have deleted unforgivable messages before meeting up with my boyfriend, might have asked someone else to hold my bag for me when I don't even request that done with my own boyfriend, might have agreed to someone's offer to piggyback me, but I never did sleep with another soul, when I am in a relationship.

Of course I know in some aspects, I can't escape the fact that I 'did' commit a betrayal. But still, to be compared with those men, my offence was so much more of a forgivable act. But again, I never did feel I was forgivable. Whatever, why am I talking about myself?

Anyways, it was a great book, a book which nearly brought me tears.
And I think I should really cry, cuz it's the 2nd book I finished reading after so many years.
Thank you Chermont Lau, you didn't sssave my life but well, you did change me.
A promise that I won't 'siam' at the sight of books if you want to head to borders one day okay?

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So long since I blogged, I'm clueless why I'll start off with the title of a book. Hormonal change. Lol. Recently, I had been busy, with boyfriend's stuffs and my own. It's been so many weeks since we went for a movie, not in the right mood for one and what's worse I was sick for a few days already. Walking zombie. Get well soon and I can be crazy again. Because of this, I hadn't met up with Mia, and it's too late to meet up with Wenhui & co because he's probably on his way to Cambodia. Bon voyage brother, have a safe trip!

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I think it's really time to doll myself up, get a job and continue dolling myself up. Been rummaging through my old clothes, and I seriously need new clothes. Quick money quick. I need some real retail therapy. And Brenda, I need some super affordable shopping spree! Haha, wait for me! (: I want my eyelashes, my MAC jet black eyeshadow and that black sandals I spotted the other day!

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All the ups and downs, sometimes it's so unbearable.
And with my temper which is making a u-turn back to me, it's even worse.
Boyfriend's been a little impatient nowadays, I've been a little aggressive.
It was just luck which stopped the few quarrels which almost started.
But hell yeah, we held it good.
So, hopefully all these will disperse with the wind soon.
I love you luh bodoh.
LOL.



And I dont know how long it will take to download 'adobe premiere'. Dammit.
Feel so much like knocking out now. -.-



A random note:
Some questions are rushing through my brains.And as usual,I can't stop it neither could I solve it.Maybe because it's the time of the month for me,so I've been rather cranky recently.Cranky cranky.I'm easily tired,easily agitated.Or maybe recently the stress level is higher than usual,really strenuous on my part.But well,hopefully this will go away,and yes,job seeking continues on thursday.

P/S Dearling, I might be a little busy recently but will try my best to focus.Miss you!



Yah,a random addition to my dead blog.

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On the way home today,baby rode past my house telling me he have somewhere to bring me to.
We trespassed our primary school,haha.

Not exactly trespassing,but we roamed the school like we're still studying.Haha.except the fact that we are too overgrown for it.old people.haha.but it was really sweet,for that's the place our affinity began.

Thank you baby,you're so bloody loved by your racerJ.
But,I guess our primary school didn't cultivate us well enough...
Cuz the first thing we did when we stepped out of school,we lit a fag.

We should head there soon...again.(:



I added something new into my daily essentials(stuff that MUST be in my bag all the time,esp when chermont's around).It's a new trend to play SCRABBLE when we chill at dino.LOL.No matter how much mummy dissuaded me into spending money on this game,I persuaded and pestered her to get it for me.Daddy was there,lucky me.

Tmr we will set another trend for scrabble-lovers,we're going to play it on the train on the way to our 3 interviews.Wish us luck.

Valentines' Day is around the corner.
Who's free in the afternoon?
Want to go on a date with me?
Baby's busy till evening time.

P/S I love ******.DECODE!

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When I'm 13,I'm but a immature ah lian trying hell best to break all rules in school. Stealing,fighting,quarrelling,smoking and playing truant was a trend.Disobeying parents was my biggest regret.

At 17,I grew out of it,a little.Yes,I didn't stop smoking,I didn't attend every lessons in NAFA,but other than that I'd grown.

Turning 21 this year,my mindset towards life made a huge turnover.
Part of it,it was some influence by people around that I decided it's time to have a goal.
Most of it,I'd grew out of all the craps that some I regretted doing;one of it I'd learnt to love my parents better.

I had ambitions when I was a little girl,haha,being a teacher or a doctor.Okay,that was insane.I can't be a teacher because I get impatient with kids in the long run.I can't be a doctor because I flunked my science paper.(i supposed it's linked?)Now that I'm graduating in a few months time,I'm seeking a goal.Many around is,serious.Chermont used to be someone with no ambitions(from what I know),now she's seeking for a goal too.For an ex-ahbeng like baby,he has ambitions,dreams and goals.And I guess he really did guide me in life because I feel guided right now.Thank you mr.boyfriend.Same old sayings from me,you really did make a grrreat impact in my life.Dearling,I'm not gonna exclude you cuz you guided me in life too.(:

That day I was at dino with Chermont,we spent an hour or so talking about our future,our own future.At that moment,I was suddenly very fess'ed up with life,my career and my family.I have 2 young punks at home,one 6 and one 11 this year.My dad is still working hard to provide for us while mummy is a housewife taking care of our daily needs.In no time I'm turning 21,it's time I start contributing to my family.Earn big bucks and help out.That's part of the reason why I'm so enthu into getting a job now,even before I graduate.Marriage to me was a big deal just months ago,because I always wanted to be a young parent like mummy.But now,it's placed behind my mind.In reality,I guess career comes first,in my case.I'm always career-minded,but only now had I realise how to go about being how I want myself to be.I'm doing everything step by step,having a planner which Chermont gave me is a start.I swear it's true,I don't know if you guys know what I mean.I just want everything to be scheduled out properly.And then,a job.

I'm ranting on and on I know.
But well,this is really how I want life to be now.
Anyways,I just realised on the 14th January,baby and I had been together for 6months already.But apparently,we thought it was just 5months.So on Vals' Day,it's 7months already.Time isn't waiting,so everyone should BUCK UP FOR A GOOD LIFE man!

Okay,blogging's over.
Will continue adding on resolutions if there's any.

P/S James Sin(my lecturer for professional practice)told us the other day,that in many minds,designers are cheap.But guess what,we are so not.So designers out there,we should be proud of ourselves.Haha.

P/P/S Jean(my lecturer for digital media production)and I had a talk for awhile the other day,and whatever she said brought me a step closer to my dream,a successful designer.

P/P/P/S Baby remember our deal aite?For now,we'll hold hands and work hard with our free hand.(:

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Knock knock.
Who's STILL there?
I'm back to blog.-.-



Paiseh,with only two hands,I'd been busy collecting angbaos and gambling a little,so I have no time to blog.A good excuse.Whatever.I'm finally back with a post,after so long.Things are cool for me,now.Baby treats me,still like a gem.Enjoyed CNY la.But,I'm going to broke again!Anyways.I'm going to go for some hardcore job-seeking with chermont tmr.Excited to get a job for some special reasons.(: And then,I can save up and buy a ferrari.Okay joke.I can save up and be the vainpot again.I can treat daddy mummy to meals and baby,I can get you...something I want to get you.Haha.Lips are zipped with zipper plus superglue.Okay.I'm still a little lazy to type a composition today so enjoy photobucket fellow aliens!

Oh.anyways,baby here's my new wallpaper on my desktop.Chuck the old one,here's the new one.
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Sweeeeet right,mr.boyfriend?

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